Wednesday, May 13, 2015

The Real Deal

I'm curled up on the couch it's cold outside . Today I feel like Carrie Bradshaw and us girls wonder how to know the real deal . 

I once shared Pad Thai with a handsome man whom was married he told me , " Amy , every man holds a deck of cards , they are all playing a hand ." 

I've definitely lived some years playing my own . Left a trail of broken hearts , but what happens when that heart is yours ? 

How do we set apart our men as kings or jokers ? 

There's 2 parts to this I want to direct your attention too . 
1. You may have a king , he may just not be meant for you . 

2. You may have a joker indeed . 

A. You may have a joker , he tells you he does not want commitment in the beginning , he is honest . But you have some sort of I can change him ear plugs on . This is not the jokers fault . Sorry girls . 

B . You have a joker he tells you but you catch feelings . Well it happens . If joker does not have feelings back not jokers fault . 
C. You have a king he is perfect and your perfect but your not perfect together . 

Sad story . 

D. This is where is gets tricky your dating you don't know what the intentions are .
You don't know the hand . This is where the late conversations come in . What do I do next ? 
I feel like at this point if he's nice or she's nice and there confusing you , at this point they could hold anything right ? 

Maybe there scared ? But wouldn't a king make you feel safe ? Don't stay at this place for to long . You might have a losing bet 

- Agent Orange 

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Fact V Fiction

Today's blog is based on words vs actions ..... 

I'm faced with one of my best friends grimaced text of finding out her boyfriend is cheating . But let's take this conversation by the hand and take a walk for a moment . I'd like to captivate you , this isn't about cheating at all . 

What got me was a month ago a friend of mine I had a crush on for 6 months touted about integrity and canceled on a date because he was out of town , but in deed I knew he was a meer 30 min away cozy with his girl friend . So what does this blog boil down down to ? 

Any one can give lip service . You can promise me your not this or not that . 
But when a person says one thing but does another - for me that's an exit out .

Not just relationships but friendships . 
Trust is the glue that bonds every foundation . 
What happens when a foundation is shattered ? 
If you love me show me . Don't just say it.
If you like someone don't lie or do whatever it takes to follow through on a promise . 

We're all human no one is perfect of course . But if your saying one thing and doing another that's an issue . 

- Agent Orange 

Monday, May 11, 2015

Science behind - love at first sight

I'm listening to Love is Love by Stereo Alchemy love this song . As a writer the one thing I'm not to perfect at writing about is romance . Why ? Maybe I'm not that overly romantic mushy girl who spends Saturday's watching chick flicks or reading 50 shades of grey . I've always been more of a Tom boy , who likes to be a bit vampy . I'm more a little intellectual and sometimes a little blonde and quirky.

But What I never knew was love at first sight . I didn't believe in it at all , I mocked love and everything hallmark . But I know now , I was wrong . I can only hope to find that love again and hold its virtual hand . 

The science behind love at first sight is tricky . So listen close . Come closer . 
We go on mindless dates with expectations and get let down one after another after another . 

It's not their fault it's ours . Let me explain . We go on a date unknowingly carrying fears and hurt from the past we are guarded . We go out with walls . We are quick to judge and get rid of new people.

Our joy and adventure is lost . We haven't mourned our past . 

Think for a moment if you walked in a room saw a beautiful girl but had no worries of her hurting you ? Cheating ? Lying ? You were free to feel ? Get to know each other , be happy ? 

Love at first sight ? Your open . Your heart is open . Imagine 2 people walk in a room . Not letting the past dictate their future , 2 magnates attracted to each other . No walls . A rare moment . 

Love at first sight . Courage at first sight .

Why should every wound keep you from being whole again ? 
So many of us single , we don't sleep at night because we're afraid of the games,  of the let downs . Or can we be open to what can happen . Because the more courage you have the less pain there will be . 

- Agent Orange