Thursday, August 13, 2015

Final Days

My 90 day journey ended a few days ago. The journey that began solely due to being tired of the way things were going in my life . I work 13-14 hours a day but wasn't making enough money , I was training with my trainer not hitting my goals and most importantly I felt I had nothing to offer someone in a relationship. I was tired and worn thin . 

I was not happy . I decided to drop dating and focus on my goals . Means put my head in the game . For 90 days no excuses . Am I exactly where I need to be at ? No . But did I push yes . 

My sales at work are almost doubled . I'm on my way on my health journey . Lost 9 pounds . Still going / 

What I've learned in 90 days has been mind blowing - little did I know it meant so much more . 

When something didn't work out be it dating or friendships or work , I told myself i was lacking . I wasn't enough . 

In my 90 days I learned if someone doesn't want you or it doesn't work then it's their loss really . It wasn't meant to be . I was enough . I began to be confidant .
In my confidence my sales grew , and so did my joy . 

I might not be at my goal line yet but I will be soon . I've worked hard to over come demons , learn to set boundaries , and know I'm worth it . That's the key . 

I was always strong , I always worked hard , but inside I was falling apart . 

I'm glad I did my 90 days - thank you Sarah for this idea we came up with . 

The best way to explain what I learned is I've become a pillar , and if you want to stand with me , we stand together , if you don't I will not fall ...... 

Thank you to you guys for being my friends and helping me through this . 

Love you all 
-Agent Orange 

Monday, August 10, 2015

Signs -

Those who dance are considered insane by those who don't hear the music - Nietzsche 

Nothing explains my next blog better than the line above . In fact this line is so true I might get it as my next tattoo - 

If you read my blog on twin flames and it makes no sense to you , then this might seem " insane " as well -  

Sometimes when something profound happens to us we get to hear things on a higher vibration , ( energy ) 
Have you met someone you had the connection with ? Not just a " connection" , as in same likes , back ground , not even love at first sight . This is deeper . 

Soul at first sight - where you can read them inside and they read you - it's not about lust or games it's just eye to eye the window of the soul . It's more than love - it's everything in one moment . You know them . To read more on this read my last blog post - 

This one goes a little deeper - 

So you connect to them right ? You feel there pain . You know when something is wrong . So what if their across the city ? The state ? The country ? 

Your not speaking for x y z reason - you get over whelming feeling in your chest out of no where , of them good or bad .
Can you feel each other ? Can we have conversations in our hearts and send our energy to them ? Can they feel it ? 
You think I'm crazy ? The brain is powerful tool . I was at a life course seminar and watched strangers do it to each other - why couldn't your deepest connection ? 

Heard of mothers intuition ? Had a feeling a friend would call and the phone rang ? 
Thought of someone and ran into them ?

I believe in one God yes , I do believe he is in control , yes . But - I believe in the power of energy , and brain . To think is to create . 

I can't prove what I know is to be true - 
But I do know I have had a sense of panic and wrote him an email and next day I was right on with what he was going through . Happened so many times - 

Ive been guided by it in decisions . It sounds " insane "? 

Read this line again and think for a moment - 

Those who dance are considered insane by those who don't hear the music - Nietzsche 

Do you hear the music ? 

- Agent Orange 

Deeper than soul mate - twin flames

I have a very heavy topic to speak of . Will I ruffle some feathers ? May even lose friends and cause many conversations amongst the  young and the old .This topic is cause for great concern and critism , I will write from my own experience - add in excerpts from doctors , and most of all you may find  your self getting angry , but as you get angry - 
Maybe just maybe you may find I am right . So let me take a moment to put on my head phones , plug in my charger and take you on my journey .

I recently had a conversation with a close girlfriend of mine who said ," Amy , we have many soul mates ". She said ," don't limit yourself ". 

I used to believe this - I used to be a cinic 
I'm not saying she is a cinic . So here me out . I was at work last week , I sparked a conversation they said , " Amy , there is no such thing as a soul mate !" I felt sad inside . But just not long ago I was one of them . So let's start back to the beginning . 

All of these people are married . So keep this thought in mind . 
I want to keep this train going in the right direction so stay with me - 

Before we go further let's look at what a true soul mate is first ok . 

"A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are."

Ah, soulmates. The epitome of love and partnership. In our fast-paced chaotic world, which boasts all sorts of different people, we find ourselves skimming through more relationships than we'd like in order to find that one person who can truly open our locks

Not just anyone can fulfill you the way your soulmate can. There's a world of a difference between your soulmate, your heart's other half and a life partner -- a person who lacks the elements to mold perfectly to you. Your soulmate makes you feel entirely whole, healed and intact, like no piece is missing from the puzzle. A life partner, on the other hand, can be a great supporter and long-time companion, but is limited in his or her capacity to enrich your spirit. 

Most of us remain in life-partner relationships because we "settle," for a multitude of reasons. Firstly, we may have a real subconscious fear of being alone. And since we're biologically designed to fall in love, it's only natural that we pair up in this world. But we sometimes prolong what are meant to be temporary relationships and mistakenly settle into them for good. There are relationships which must last for a certain period of time to close out a karmic chapter of life, relationships in which we're meant to have children with our partner but not necessarily remain with them, and relationships which are just plain confusing because a melting pot of emotions doesn't allow us to see our predestined path. 

from couples who married their childhood loves to people in their retirement years who still struggle with commitment issues. Most of us fall somewhere between these two extremes, meaning that we experienced several relationships before finding the person we believe to be our perfect pairing. Whether you're currently married, in a relationship, or contemplating entering a relationship with a new love interest, it is crucial that you know what role this person will play in your life. After all, there's no avoiding the inevitable, often uncomfortable question we must ask ourselves: Is this the person I was bound by destiny to share my life with? Or did I settle too quickly into a relationship with someone who can never complete me? 

No matter the category you fit into to, there are several indications which clearly outline a soulmate bond (or a lack of bond) between you and your partner. As you go through this list, think about your partner or potential partner and evaluate whether they meet the soulmate criteria.

So here are the questions : 

1. It's something inside. Describing how a soulmate makes you feel is difficult. It's a tenacious, profound and lingering emotion which no words can encompass.

2. Flashbacks. If your partner is your soulmate, chances are he or she has been present in your past lives. Soulmates often choose to come back together during the same lifetime and scope each other out in the big world. You might suddenly and briefly experience flashbacks of your soulmate. You might even feel an odd sense of déjà vu, as if the moment in time has already taken place, perhaps a long time ago, perhaps in a different setting. 

3. You just get each other. Ever met two people who finsh each other's sentences? Some people call that spending too much time together, but I call it a soulmate connection. You might experience this with your best friend or your mother, but it is the telltale sign of a soulmate when you experience it with your partner. 

4. You fall in love with his (or her) flaws. No relationship is perfect, and even soulmate relationships will experience ups and downs. Still, that bond will be much harder to break. Soulmates have an easier time of accepting, even learning to love, each other's imperfections. Your relationship is more likely to be a soulmate match if you both love each other exactly as you each are, accepting both the great and awful tendencies we all have. 

5. It's intense. A soulmate relationship may be more intense than normal relationships, in both good and sometimes bad ways. The most important thing is that, even during negative episodes, you're focused on resolving the problem and can see beyond the bad moment.

6. You two against the world. Soulmates often see their relationship as "us against the world." They feel so linked together that they're ready and willing to take on any feat of life, so long as they have their soulmate by their side. Soulmate relationships are founded on compromise and unity above all else.

7. You're mentally inseparable. Soulmates often have a mental connection similar to twins. They might pick up the phone to call each other at the exact same time. Though life may keep you apart at times, your minds will always be in tune if you are soulmates.

8. You feel secure and protected. Regardless of the gender of your partner, he or she should always make you feel secure and protected. This means that if you're a man, yes, your woman should make you feel protected, too! Your soulmate will make you feel like you have a guardian angel by your side. A person who plays on your insecurities, whether consciously or subconsciously, is not your soulmate. 

9. You can't imagine your life without him (or her). A soulmate is not someone you can walk away from that easily. It is someone you can't imagine being without, a person you believe is worth sticking with and fighting for.

10. You look each other in the eye. Soulmates have a tendency to look into each other's eyes when speaking more often than ordinary couples. It comes naturally from the deep-seated connection between them. Looking a person in the eye when speaking denotes a high level of comfort and confidence.

Whether you're designed by the universe to be soulmates or two loving people who have settled for each other's strengths and weaknesses, the decision is yours. The beauty of free will is that you can remain in or change any relationship as you see fit. To be with your soulmate is one of the precious treasures of life. And if you feel you've found your heart's other half, I wish you endless days of joy and laughter, and countless nights of deep embrace, unraveling the mysteries of the universe one by one. 

Soul mate or twin is something that is true and real . Sometimes like stated above if we marry young or settle its not because we found that spiritual twin connection , sadly it's found later in life it causes confusion . But it doesn't make it less real . This isn't about lust . 

I myself only experienced it once in life . It wasn't even to the person I married . I thought I loved in life until I experienced this . You feel what they feel , you just get them . It truly is a twin flame . 

My point is if you have found it no matter what your circumstance , be happy it's out there  .....