1 month in 90 day goals . Tracking progress , my goal started out solely my fitness goal and getting my place .
It expanded to no dating as well .
Because A. You can't focus on said goals if you are putting time into dating .
B. I can't give myself to someone 100% until these goals are fo filled .
I knew this , as I know now .
I'm learning that sticking to the 90 days is imperative . It's not because any one has truly crushed my spirit .
This is about me not anyone else .
I took 4 years off dating , now 4 months dating . All different scenerios . Yet I remain the same .
Not that I'm the same person in my actions with these men . 1 was pretty special , the rest I couldn't tell you .
But - how special could they be , I'm single . Back to my point , I need change so I can offer Mr Right my best .
What happens if I meet Mr amazing in my 90 days ? Well I might screw it up , not really be myself because my goals have not yet reached the finish line .
Maybe being left a little misunderstood .
Here we are end of month 1.
I've only cheated once on my diet . I feel balloons falling from heaven and a good pat on my own back .
2. I've been so much more happy .
3. I'm having the best month I've ever had in sales .
60 days are left staring at me in the face .
I'm a lion , I will finish on the other side a winner and much wiser .
Anyone who knows the real me has stuck by myside . Never leaving , never failing . Thank you .
I need this to become vulnerable , un guarded , and ready -
I've lost a lot , but I never settle . And everyone on this journey is a true friend . Everyone else - there fucking loss .
- Agent Orange