Perception

Foo fighters ever long streams through my car this morning , I'm an hour early for work . I wait alone here in the parking lot . This month has been hard , working 6 days a week , takes a toll on you . I find myself thinking when will my big break come . Yes , there are none in life , but maybe just one . I suppose I've had a few in my life , maybe I didn't take them when I should've . I don't regret the winded path it's led me on to where I sit in this car that hardly works but is fighting til the end much like myself - 

So here this story goes , why is happiness a perception . 

And how Amy can we change our perceptions ? Good question . 

Every morning I leave Starbucks I see a homeless man sitting in his car . Rusted and blue missing all its paint . The man is worn from life's regrets , he is dirty and tired . But none of that matters when he is sitting in front of Starbucks every morning . Why you are wondering ..... 

There he sits , coffee and old cell phone in hand waving it around trying to catch the free wifi Starbucks offers from his car 

You can see the joy on the mans face 

A peaceful moment . 

Us Americans , we find happiness in plastic surgery or expensive cars . We set goals to become rich and to attain wealth 

When it's not achieved people commit suicide . 

Perception . 

I once did financial advising , home loans 

I had a man call me , he was sobbing , he had lost everything . He killed himself on the phone . My job as an advisor a counselor , to consol him at that moment was to tell him things will get better . 

His perception that all his happiness was in his things . 

Third world countries rely on just finding food and water as a daily goal . They have no understanding what a selfie is or fake lips or boobs or eating disorders . 

Yet we bullie and harass one another on appearance because we are not happy within ourselves . 

What's your perception ? Is it keeping you from the big picture ? 

If we generated happiness into giving 

And loving , instead of into things or ideas then happiness would become tangible . 

Not just a perceived idea of what is mine what I need what you need keeps us divided . 1 out 3 Americans are on medication for depression . 1 out of 5 suffer from obesity . This is an internal problem . 

Where is our joy ? 

My best moments in life are from family and friends , from great leaders lending a helping hand or people showing unconditional love . 

Don't base your happiness on 1 thing . 

Yes set goals of course . Strive to be your best , be successful . 

But don't make it your identity . 

Be you . Be different . Smile . 

Agent Orange 

When Your Fallen

There's those times when we seem like giving up on hope and faith , when things get dark and shadows close in . Just remember not to forget where you came from , the battles you faced and won , the roads you walked alone , and around the bend victory is waiting . Because the ones who walk away weren't meant to strive with you and the ones who make it will die with you and those are the ones who matter most . 

Take heart - 

Amy Bible

If someone could just of told me sooner .

That - 

It's alright to eat cake with your fingers in the car , and it's not alright to let anyone's opinion dictate who you are , and never let anyone talk down to you , further more never devalue yourself because every single thing you do comes from the power of your own mind , so love yourself and believe in your self you are in control of your own success . Do not be your worst enemy the world is full of evil people already . And love your enemies , not for them for you . Love unconditionally do not expect return . Life is not black and white when someone walks away it's probably because of that grey area so relax the answer will come in due time and trust me it always does in this case follow your heart . 

True love only happens once , if you have not experienced it keep your eyes and heart open , if your not sure you have then you haven't , 

Always stay calm . Never involve yourself with people who are toxic . Remember to love whole . Never give your self easily . 

Never become dependent on anything it will kill you . That is just a fact . Or kill the best part of you . 

God is real give him control of your life . 

Then you don't have to worry about controlling it . Cling on to what is good and get rid of the rest . And friends who are easily swayed are not your friends . 

Never compare yourself to others . You are never going to be a model but it doesn't mean he doesn't think your not beautiful . 

Be healthy we live once . 

Do not let your fear of anything drive you like I said we live once . Crush your fears 

Fear is just a lie . 

Leave a bad marriage if it's un fixable true love is out there . Once again we only live once . Sorry it's true . 

Live in joy and be thankful , love your friends and no matter what your truth is never lie . 

Nothing is more important than your kids 

Chase nothing , unless you screwed up fix it with actions not just words . 2 people should come together , 

Listen to music , set daily goals and always be moving forward . Life is a beautiful journey live it . And love the journey . Good or bad . You learn every step of the way . 

Plug your ears to na Sayers - 

Love with all your heart - 

Agent Orange 

Number On My Back

It's late the day has run stale I'm listening to AFI in bed and I'm writing to you about the number system - 

I mean it goes something like this , 

Last night was amazing , we been seeing each other for a few months now and we connect . For some reason he disappeared ? Never to be heard from again ? 

I call this the number system , like a tagged and numbered human ready for the slaughter . Doesn't mean you slept with them , maybe you did , maybe you didn't . My point is , the number system works when your left questioning in the end . 

Now the number system is NOT - ok when you have a one night stand or two night stand of great sex and great connection knowing it's just that . 

So I want this blog to cover all aspects of what is ready for slaughter and what you indeed tagged your self " ladies." 

Pardon me while I clear my throat but it's true . So let's remove those Scarlett's letters and get down to the dirty truth . 

Example A.

You have a unicorn he isn't the settling type , you know this - DO NOT shake your head at me , you have the best sex of your life , he's amazing , he's a god , 

Yes he is , but we know coming in what he is . You can't change him and then be mad you didn't change him . Or be sad he does not text or call / 

All you can do move on . Or maybe have another night of fun . 

You were tagged you are just a number this is the number system . You can't be mad but it is what it is . 

Example B. 

You date someone a few months and things are perfect . So it seems . You talk all day , things seem great then one day he is gone . Maybe you met his friends and family . Your left with the burning question , what did I do wrong ? 

Your Prince Charming has vanished you feel like a foolish girl . 

We're you tagged for the kill ? Maybe , maybe not . 

Google seems to have an answer for everything . But I think I have the better answer . 

All in all some men are bad at communicating , some or most can be cowards . Not ready to commit . Maybe there scared , immature , maybe they have issues , but someone who walks away do they deserve you ? 

Your hear left alone to find someone else that does not bother them because at the moment they are more important than you . Last time I looked I was very important to myself . So why would I choose  someone who does not put me first or any where at all ? 

You only deserve the best . People should be chasing each other , being there through the very best and the very worst . 

So how do we become from being another number ? Giving ourself for nothing ? 

I don't have the answer . But don't become bitter or angry or you will start writing numbers - and you are not that person or you wouldn't be reading this now . 

Make sense 

Agent Orange 

Disappointment

It's 6 am I'm warm in my bed and about to get up for my day . Today I want to talk about trust and disappointment . 

How many times do we put our trust in someone because they promise they will be careful with our hearts ? Those quiet careful egg shell steps we take and we decide to give it a shot , then in one moment with out warning they disappear like you never mattered at all , maybe you have someone who cheated or lied . 

Your plagued with disappointment , and confusion . 

What is their to do ? You think why ? 

The one thing I think we need to do is take a long hard look in our own mirror . 

You say Amy that makes no sense , it wasn't our fault . True , I agree . But is there a such thing as all of the sudden ? 

Maybe we need to chose more carefully . 

Maybe they weren't treating that great ,

Maybe they were but they had a lot of personal issues . We tend to ignore those issues because they told us , " trust me."

Then the worst happens . I can tell you three things , I know we sit in shock and pain , lose sleep and wonder . But if you remember these three things I promise it will help 

1. They did you a favor . 

Do you want to be with someone who cares so little about you they can't say good bye ? No explanation at all . 

Someone who is a coward who cheated and ruined your trust ? 

Is that the kind of life you deserve ? No 

2. Love yourself . I know we sit and think where we went wrong . But it's not you it's them . If there was an issue with you they wouldn't leave or cheat , they would recognize that you matter and they would communicate with you . 

3. Keep your focus on your daily goals 

Nothing will feel better or keep you moving forward like achieving what your meant to do . Be positive and the right person will come along . 

I'm sorry someone tried to break you , 

That just means they were broken themselves . Don't ignore the signs next time , most importantly keep your chin up 

It's their loss any way - 

Agent Orange 

How to Master the Impossible

Laying in bed streaming Foo Fighters - Ever long . Raigan is sleeping effortless next to me , I'm writing to share some news . 

This past month I had to reach a certain goal , almost unattainable , like most goals we need to write them down , make a daily plan and never stop fighting until you reach it . 

I wrote down my daily goal and hit it every day . In fighting for this goal so hard , there was no room for error . 

How did I achieve it ? I want to share it with you right now . 

I realized A. Filter out anything toxic . In doing this I realized some of the people I cared about the most were the ones holding me back .

How did I realize this ? When you focus on a goal and strive for it with everything you can't let negativity in your head . 

Or you will fail . Remember water can't sink a boat unless you let it in . 

You have to put on the virtual head phones and believe in yourself . 

You can win !!!! While on lookers can tell you , you will never make it . Drop them from your life and keep going . All you need is cheer leaders . 

B.  The more you do this , you will create positive energy and positive people . I had amazing people surround me and help me win my goal . Pretty soon it's all you see is the good . Nothing bad will be in your focus or camera . 

C. Then comes joy . What a concept . How many of you feel deafeted , sad , 

Depressed ?????

You need to clean your lense like I said and you will find a new joy and strength . 

D. God - putting my faith in him letting him be in control is #1. When you feel alone he is always their to guide you .

So please don't wait for tomorrow start your journey today . 

Thank you to all my friends - 

Agent Orange 

Doing The Impossible

Hitler had thousands of followers to murder innocent people . Jesus had 12 disciples to do good . 

What a powerful message to think about. Daunting isn't it ? How many times does that toxic person come to you and say something negative to you and tries to back it up by saying so and so agrees or maybe your bullied by a group of individuals and you let it get you down . You think it must be true because it's them against you ? 

Not the case . 

Here is another example - the owner of Starbucks was turned down 34 times before he was accepted now look at his business . 

Or maybe a room full of models and the simple girl in the corner stands out the most beautiful ? 

My point is never ever lose faith in who you are , always be you . People work for the dreamers , because they are the ones who made it happen . Don't let miserable people tarnish your shine . 

Hold your light high . No one can say you can't . 

Agent Orange